heartbroken

Taylor: Mommy doesn't hold me anymore.
Jason: Yea, but you know why Mommy can't hold you anymore, right?
Taylor: Cuz Max is in her belly.
Jason: When Max comes out, Mommy can hold you again.
Taylor: Okay, Mommy can hold me when Max comes out.
Jason: You want Mommy to hold you?
Taylor: Yea.

Jason had this conversation with Taylor the other day when he took her to the park. Needless to say, when he told me, I cried. It breaks my heart that I can't do the things I normally would with Taylor and that she notices. Since then, I've had several conversations with Taylor and reminded her that I'll be able to hold/carry her again soon. I guess these are the sacrifices I have to make with a growing family. =(

37 weeks and READY!

The house is in shambles, the nursery is NOT ready, and I am not finished with tasks at work...but I swear, this baby wants OUT! Max is buried deep into my cervix and his head is pressing hard against my bladder, hips and pelvis...making every movement I make ridiculously uncomfortable and painful. I predict and have for a long time an early delivery. If I'm wrong and he waits until (near) my due date, I'll be eating my words. I was never this uncomfortable with Taylor, but with Max, I feel such a strong sense of urgency to get everything DONE asap! I can only guess its because #1, he is a boy and bigger and #2, I am all sorts of stretched out from carrying Taylor so he has descended further, faster.

Every night when Taylor goes to sleep, Jason and I clean the the house and try to repair all the damage that Taylor has done. And then the next day, it all gets destroyed again. LOL! Its a constant vicious cycle that is making my "nesting" period non-existent. Oh the joys of having a toddler! ;)

I've decided that this baby will have to be born in whatever condition the house is in, whether he is early or not. And if his nursery isn't finished, so be it. We have everything we need...his room just won't be exactly how I want it. And as for work...really? I've fully trained my backups. Work will carry on. This chic is super tired and becoming more and more immobile. By the time I get home, laying down is the only thing that gives my body relief. So as much as I can't stand to have the house in shambles, I'll just have to watch it all go down from the couch & bed.

date night

Jason and I went to a wedding on Saturday night for one of my coworkers. I was super excited because we hardly go on date nights, let alone get all dressed up for a formal affair. What made the night super special was the venue was held at the same place we had our wedding reception...so there was a lot or reminiscing.

Here are some fun pics of the hubby and I. We had lots of fun...I only craved a glass of wine a couple hundred times ;)